My least favorite part of leadership is the part where I rebuke and correct then administer discipline and training. It is hard—and that is definitely an understatement. At least for me it is, especially when a friendship or a relationship hangs in the balance. That must also be an aspect of parenting too. But I guess “spare the rod, spoil the child” and all that, right? Still, I wish that those I lead would not have to present me with situation for my hammer and gavel to come out.
Today was the first day of this kind of situation for me. I could have handled better. I confronted the guilty party—and a party it was, a party of three—and informed them that I had to report the incident despite our friendship, our bond, my reluctance and their pleas.
Maybe “despite” is the wrong word to use; more like “in lieu of” or something that denotes more pleasant connotations. But in the end, I guess there is no easy way around it. I did what I had to do, in order to uphold my personal integrity and my commitment to my position.
It doesn’t make it any easier to swallow though. I guess, most of the time, I value relationships over discipline and punishment. In the days that follow, I will attempt to salvage what I can although I do understand if our friendship is changed, different, ruined.
Leadership is hard—which is another understatement.